So, I finally turned 50 on October 6! And I've been too busy to write much about it, (much less get the blog details changed now that I AM THERE) but let me stand on the roof and shout that (so far) "I LOVE 50!" The last time I felt extremely different about a specific birthday was when I turned 21. I loved turning 21. Life was opening up. And 30 was pretty great because I was starting to feel like a grown up (baby of the family syndrome) finally. Everybody made a big deal of 40, and it was fun, but I didn't feel very different at all. Not in a good or a bad way. Just nothing. But 50!! I seriously feel different.
One of my favorite things about turning 50 so far is relaxing about my weight. Not my health or fitness or energy levels, mind you, but my weight. I've always yo-yoed. I'm a Weight Watchers veteran since age 16. Yep. You heard that right. And no, I don't have an eating disorder. I just love food and can find every reason to enjoy it!
I've always laughed when people said, "Only eat when you are hungry, and you will be fine." That's not why I eat! Eating is for celebration and mourning, victory and loss, busyness and boredom. . . You give me a situation, and I can give you food and a reason it goes together! So, I've yo-yoed. It's just the way it has been. I've been super heavy, really trim, and everything in between. Obviously, my preference and always my goal is to be trim and fit.
But so far, since turning 50, I have not gotten on the scale once. I've rebooted my exercise regime and am reducing carbs - the best proven combination for me. I have a super slow metabolism, even slower since crossing the "midlife" line, and since my knee forbids me to run, it's hard to get enough intensity to rev her up, but I'm working on it. Without looking at the scale. For the first time in I can't remember how many years, I am not worried about the scale, but I still want the health, the fitness, and the energy levels.
Letting go of the scale is a huge deal to me. It's been an albatross, and I'm so happy to fling it off.
As I find more awesome changes with turning 50, I'll jot them down here. I'm sure they won't be profound, but I want to be able to look back when I'm 60 and see what I was thinking here, at the beginning of 50. Cheers!